If there is one word I could use for the past week, thankful. Nate & I feel so incredibly amazed & thankful that we are pregnant. There have been so many months & years that we have felt such sorrow & heartbreak from not being able to get pregnant. So many tears & difficult days when it was hard to get out of bed & so hard to be at work acting like everything was ok. I think back to a year ago, when we did our 3rd IUI & were so hopeful that it would be successful & felt so good. It was unsuccessful & that was one of the hardest days of my life.
Now I think of how completely happy we feel & blessed & thankful our hearts feel. I know that we were given our struggles with infertility for a reason. It is much easier to say that now but I also knew it at the time. Even when I was in my lowest times, I was able to pray while sobbing & feel my Savior's love for me. I knew that someday, it would all be worth it.
After finding out we were pregnant from 2 positive pregnancy tests on Wednesday, I had my blood tested on Thursday, 2/1/18. We got a call from our doctor's office Friday morning to tell us that my HCG level was good (114) & I was definitely pregnant! It was such a relief to hear those words. Even though I had gotten the positive pregnancy tests, I was still nervous to make sure it was real! We were out of town, so when we got back, I had my blood tested a 2nd time to make sure the levels were still rising (requested by my doctor before we would schedule an ultrasound). Once again I was nervous, wondering what the results would be. I had that blood test taken on Monday, 2/5/18, & it took until Tuesday night for the results to come in & Wednesday morning for Dr. Amols' office to call me. I was able to see the results from the lab Tuesday night though & they looked high, so I was so happy & relieved! Then I got the call this morning & they said my HCG levels were outstanding (822) & that that was great! I am 5 weeks & 2 days today! I made an appointment for Nate & I to go in for an ultrasound on Monday & I am beyond excited! It still feels unreal but so happy & wonderful!
Every day now, I just can't stop thinking about how I am pregnant & how excited I am. I have woken up at exactly 4am the past few morning & cannot get back to sleep because I am just too excited! I used to always touch my stomach & wonder what it would be like to be pregnant & now I put my hand on my stomach & think how excited I am that there is a little baby (or babies) in there! I can't wait for our ultrasound & am just loving this time of feeling so excited & happy! I know that it feels so much more special & amazing because of all we went through to get to this point. I am so thankful for my Heavenly Father for helping Nate & I to get to this point & to never lose faith or hope. We feel so blessed.