On Friday I go in for a surgery to see if my fallopian tubes can be unblocked. I am nervous because I will need an IV & I'm I just feel like I'm going to pass out when I think of that & what they will be doing. I'm just trying not to think about it. I have been trying not to think about the whole infertility thing lately & not stress about it. I have faith & hope that things will work out the way & in the timing that they are supposed to. That doesn't mean I don't get sad though, I have just been trying not to let myself feel like that too often & have been keeping busy. I've also been working hard to get back into working out regularly, which helps tire me out & have less time & energy to spend worrying. One thing I have realized lately is that every single person has huge trials that they are going through. Of course, we can't pick & choose our trials, but Heavenly Father knows what trials we need to go through to learn & grow & will not give us trials we can't handle. I have really been trying to be conscious of others & tried to focus more on what I can do for others or what struggles they might be going through & things I can do to help other than thinking about my own trials. It has helped me immensely & I am thankful for that. I realized I have really only been thinking about myself & my struggles lately & it is such a selfish thing, I could have been doing so much more good for others. Anyways, my goal the rest of this year & beyond is to focus on serving others & being mindful of struggles they might be going through.