This summer break was relaxing & fun & the highlights were a girls surf trip to San Diego, a summer regional trip to Sedona with my honey, & a family reunion in Rocky Point with all of my family. I feel so blessed that we were able to have such a fun summer. In between the fun & good there was also sad, discouraging, & disappointing, but without the bad, we wouldn't see the good. My sweet grandpa passed away this summer, which was hard. This past year and a half both of my grandpa's, my sweet aunt, & Nate's grandma & grandpa passed away. So sad, but we are thankful to know they are in a better place.
In between the fun trips, I had some doctor's appointments & was nervous but excited to get started on my first round of IVF. We have been saving for the past 3 years for this & were so anxious knowing we would have a higher chance of getting pregnant. Well, before we got started on the meds, my doctor wanted to do a special type of ultrasound to make sure my uterus was a normal shape. I was feeling pretty nervous about the test because Nate couldn't come with me & they had told me it involved a balloon type thing & water shooting up there & it just sounded awkward.. Welcome to the world of infertility though, haha! Anyways, my mom ended up coming with me, which was nice & we got lunch beforehand & went shopping. When they started the test everything seemed fine & the doctor was talking to me & asking me questions. Then he got silent & started asking the nurse for different tools & I could just tell that something was wrong. I was so scared & also the test was uncomfortable & took a long time & then finally the doctor told me that something wasn't quite right & to get dressed & meet him in the consult room. I got dressed quickly & went in the room & he told me that he thought I might have a vaginal septum that was blocking my uterus almost completely except for a tiny hole. He asked if I felt uncomfortable using a tampon (which I do but I just thought it was normal) & if I have very painful periods (which I do). He told me to set up an appointment that week to do another test with a camera (a hysteroscopy) to make sure that was what I had.
I came back a few days later, had another very uncomfortable & long test & they were able to take pictures & videos to determine that I did indeed have vaginal septum. So then, instead of starting IVF, I had to cancel everything & we are now waiting to have our doctor contact a surgeon & set up the surgery. It is all very stressful. One thing that has been so hard is that every single test that has been done, they say that they are just checking for something which I probably don't have & then I do end up having whatever that is. This is just another one of those cases. I guess this condition is so extremely rare, which does not make me feel better. I just wish I could have a normal body that could get pregnant. I hear mom's complaining about their children, & complaining about how they get pregnant so easily & it just breaks my heart. I know that one day this trial will be over & I will look back on it & see the things I learned but at this time it is just so hard.
I am thankful for what I have though. Nate & I have such a strong marriage & he has always been there for me. I am thankful for my belief in God & that has gotten me through this! This surgery could be a good thing in the long run, it's possible that they could remove the septum & then I could get pregnant naturally now & from then on, which would be the most amazing thing every. I'm thankful that they were able to discover this issue before we started IVF & at this time rather than years later.
Anyways, that't my update. Hopefully the surgery will be scheduled soon & will go well!