One thing that I have realized with infertility is that you have to live & enjoy your life & try not to focus too much on what you cannot change. I was looking through forums on infertility & heard many stories of people that have struggled 5 or more years with infertility. When I first realized we weren't able to get pregnant easily, I was so worried, I always pictured myself married with lots of children running around, going to soccer games, parent teacher conferences, doing crafts, & going on little outings. I almost felt like I needed to put my life on hold & not have any other dreams other than having children. I was worried about the monetary costs that we might encounter & felt guilty for any money that was spent. I spent a lot of time stressing & worrying & I still stress & worry about these things. But I have also learned that it is important to live & enjoy life & if I am doing everything I can to become a mother, then that is all I can do. I am so thankful that N & I went to Europe 2 summers ago & to Bali this past summer. I will remember both trips & the fun we had for the rest of my life. Both trips gave us something to look forward too & plan for even though we couldn't plan on when we would have a child. Both trips were so fun & relaxing & full of so many new experiences. They were perfect! If we hadn't gone on these trips because be weren't sure if I would be pregnant or having fertility appointments, then I would be feeling so sad that we hadn't made the decision to go. You can't just put your life on hold. Heavenly Father wants you to do everything you can & then the rest is up to Him. Now, my next goals are to train for & run a half marathon & to plan a trip to Hawaii for N & I. I told N I wanted to do half marathon & he asked about what I would do if I was pregnant. It just got me thinking so much about this whole subject. Though I do hope so much that I will get pregnant & we will be able to have a baby (or babies!! twins please!!!), I am still going to have goals & plans that will make me happy & of course I will be happy if those plans change if I become pregnant, but I also won't feel like I was sitting around & wasting my life just waiting instead of accomplishing dreams & goals.