11/30/2017 0 Comments another month downOne month down since we have had a chance to be pregnant & I am sad to say we are not. I was hoping so badly that we would be pregnant by Christmas & know that we were pregnant & have that happy little secret & surprise both of our families.
I pictured having a gift they would open with little baby shoes or a stuffed animal. I remember hoping that so badly last Christmas & the past 3 Christmas seasons. Last Christmas was the year that our IUI's were unsuccessful, the year before was when we were doing clomid or femara, & the year before was the year we were trying to get pregnant & hoping each month to have a positive pregnancy test, not knowing that hundreds of negative tests would be in our future. Sometimes it is fun to get so excited thinking of how it will be when I am pregnant & when we have children. Sometimes it just hurts though, when you have had thoughts like that so many times but are still in the same place. This Christmas season I am going to really try hard to serve others & think of others. I feel like I have been thinking about myself too much lately & this is the perfect time to forget myself & serve others. I have faith in my Heavenly Father that there is a reason that Nate & I have not had children yet. We have grown closer together & had experiences that we needed to have & when we do have children, I know it will be so much easier to recognize that. For now we will continue to have faith.
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