Sometimes I find myself feeling so discouraged. I get tired of having to time everything, saving money that is used so quickly on doctor's bills for treatments that have not worked, & just the feeling of wanting & hoping & dreaming of something so badly for so many years & it seems like nothing has changed. People that I remember saying they wanted to get pregnant now have children that are a few years old or several children & here I am still in the same place.
Yesterday I was feeling so stressed & discouraged. I got to work & my whole body just felt heavy & tired & thoughts of giving up on trying to get pregnant crowded my head. After work I went to watch the Bachelor with my little sister & was able to vent to her a little bit & then I got home & my sweet husband was home. We talked & I was able to feel a lot more peace about everything. Then he went to play basketball & I had a relaxing evening, watching The Profit & eating nachos & peanut butter cups. It was just what I needed.
There have been a few times where I have felt like giving up, but then I am blessed with a feeling of peace & a hope & a will to go on with this process. So for now, I will keep doing what I'm doing & keep praying to be guided to do what is right for our family.