Yesterday was a hard day. A really, really hard day. N & I found out the IUI did not work at 4 in the morning, when I took 2 pregnancy tests. We had both had our hopes up that it would be positive. I was crying a lot of the day & my contact lenses at work ended up getting so fogged up from crying that I couldn't see out of them, that has never happend before!! Nate ended up bringing my glasses by work. It was a hard day at work. I had only slept about 30 mins. that night & was feeling so tired, sick to my stomach from lack of sleep, & so very sad. It was hard to sit for 8 hours, trying to get work done & trying not to cry. After work, I came home & lay on the couch, watching the Lizzie McGuirre movie. N was so nice & picked us up some BBQ for dinner. We had made a plan that if the results were negative, we would get take out & if they were positive, we would have dinner at a restaurant. Then he went to cubscouts & a meeting for me, which I was so thankful for. I just felt so horrible, both from the lack of sleep & an emotional day. I did have friends & family that sent nice texts. I prayed for comfort & peace & while it was a hard day & I felt so sad most of the day, I was able to fall asleep at night & wake up feeling much more positive. I am still sad the procedure didn't work, but I just feel so much better accepting that, having a full nights rest, & knowing that we have an appointment with the doctor tomorrow to talk about our plan & hopefully get started on the track for a 2nd IUI. I think that most people don't get pregnant on their first IUI & I will be so happy if we are able to get pregnant on our 2nd or 3rd one & have a healthy pregnancy! If none of them work, we will save up for IVF & I also want to be able to save up a little extra to do a very relaxing vacation after the IVF. Either way, I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for N & I & our family. I know that we will have children somehow. I am so thankful for the gift of feeling so much more happy & positive today, I know it is an answer to my prayers. Today is a new day!